time, time, time...see what's become of me

i knew it had been awhile since i posted. but, two months? wow! time has continued to march on. i guess the world really doesn't revolve around me and my little blog, huh? (smile)

it's interesting...this weekend marks the end of one of my favorite television shows, lost. i know that many folks were there in the beginning of the show in 2004 and gradually lost interest over the subsequent seasons. but i can tell you that i was loyal and have seen every episode. truly, i can't wait to see how it all ends. i have heard and read a lot of the recent commentary about how the show marks the end of an era or that it has been a journey not just for the characters, but the viewers as well. i read one article in particular of a woman who couldn't believe that she had started watching this program with her 14 year old teenage daughter and will conclude watching the series with her now 20 year old adult daughter. it seems to me that stories like that forces one to think about who you were and who you've become.

my whole purpose of starting a blog a few years ago was because i thought it might help me find a way to say the things that i needed or wanted to say. i felt the need to explore who i really was and what makes me tick...the whole "trying to get my bearings" theme in discovering my strengths, weaknesses, likes, dislikes, convictions, and beliefs. it seemed that writing on a blog was a natural outlet for discovering this. i wouldn't have thought that in two years i had changed much, but i believe that i have. there are things that i once wondered about, but i now know for certain. i know that i want to be a mother, even if i might never get to be one. i know what i believe spiritually, despite the fact that it is radically different from the religious heritage i was brought up in. i know who in my life matters to me and who will only hurt me or use me or deceive me. i know that even though you take the girl out of where she grew up, you can't take that place and it's amazing culture out of the girl. most importantly, i know that all of my experiences - good, bad, or indifferent - have led me to who i am today and i couldn't make any of these assertions about myself without having had those experiences. and so, as a result, i think i may have found my bearings.

so does this mean that it's time to close up shop on this blog? i'm still pondering that. if i do continue, i know that my purpose in blogging will radically change as will my focus. for now i'll just say "stay tuned."

grace and peace,
dana